I'm betwixt and between :|

I was brainstorming on what my topic will be in this blog and ended up with two topics:
1. One that I really wanted to talk about but I am scared to because I might offend some people OR
2. Something I really love to talk about but people have been posting about it and it's already a hackneyed topic.
So I was stuck with that two subjects and my mind's literally screaming at me to choose one, at once or else I'll take more time with this. Obviously, I didn't choose one of those options and just decided to talk about whatever I want. I guess it doesn't matter. As I'm typing here my brain is thinking random thingamajigs and it's all messed up. I didn't know how to prioritize, so I'm pretty well mucked up. Life is about decisions and it's either that or this. Mind you, fellow, one small mistake would blow everything off. Be wise and know what to choose. I chose amusement over studies, now my conscience is flashing 'Yeah girl, HORRIBLE IDEA'. If I just sacrificed a week of not using the Internet and study. If I just listened to my mom and her threats. If I just knew how to prioritize. If I just knew this will all happen. I would have done better with my exams. Ifs that wouldn't do anything but continue to remind me of my failures. Too late, exams had passed and I'm left to wait for that horrifying day that makes my stomach do a back-flip and a somersault...Card Day. I know I didn't do well in most of my exams but I'm still hoping that I will not receive my most feared grade or else I'm really doomed. I promise to do A LOT better on the second grading and I will sacrifice. This time, I'll compromise and do my best to concentrate on the lessons. The next time after exams, I would be sitting here confident of my grades and not like today that I'm nervous and terrified of what the results will be.