Love is a question mark.

Most teenagers like me already experienced love. I know that because my friends has but not me. Not 'til I graduate from college. I will do all my best to block that kind of distraction. It's better for Social Networking site and games to distract me but love? A resounding NO. In our world today, there are a lot of teenagers who's becoming pregnant and are facing their doom. That doom started with love, love started with a crush. They don't study anymore because they have to mother a child. Being a mother is not a joke, it's not that easy like you play in the game The Sims. Even in The Sims, it's also hard to take care a baby. You need to wake up to feed them in the middle of night and cradle them to let them fall asleep. Not to mention the money you need to spend for a baby. Teenagers who are mothers in a young age clearly doesn't have an income to buy the things a baby needs. Plus the regular check-up and immunizations of a baby is a must and it costs a lot. It's also sad to say that in our country, young teens that are working for extra money is being look down to. Not like in America, it's a normal stuff to do and they accept it. No discrimination. Being a young mother in this country is just hard. Yes, you might say that love do not always lead to pregnancy but I say, eventually it will. You will never guess unless you have a boyfriend that cares about both of your futures, really cares about you and truly loves you. He'll know the best for both of you if he's in the right mind. So yeah. Love is a question mark for me. It's not that I have no idea about what it is. I know a lot about that. I am fully aware of what can it do to a person. It can make you insane and really insane when a guy breaks your heart. I agree, it is a great feeling but I know it also can be the worst feeling in the world. So I'm weighing its pros and cons and decided it's still a question in my life. Love will define its meaning when I'm in the right age, when it's the right time and it is the right place. Right now, I'm just up to reading lovely quotes about love and appreciating it. Some of those quotes are not really reality though, unless as I said you found your Mr. 100% Right. I won't go beyond the quotes. For me, those are just words that ticks someone's fantasy for now. Until then, who knows?

I had a freaky daymare :|

Yes, a daymare as I call it because it was a nightmare that happened in the day. It was freaky as hell, you know. It was earlier today at exactly 12:51pm. I know because I checked my phone time. I decided to take a nap and set my alarm at 3 pm so that when I wake up I'll do my home work and journal. At first, my 2-hour nap was dreamless and I woke up at the sound of my alarm but then I decided it was too early and took a nap again. It happened in my second nap. It was creepy because I remember being in a hall watching some show with my cousin and her boyfriend. It was an opera or something and it was entertaining and amazing. Then I don’t know what happened and the scene suddenly switched into me, my cousin inside the car and her boyfriend driving out of the hall’s parking lot. Then I find myself watching another scene and it was unrelated to the opera-watching and now my cousin and her boyfriend are gone. It was a scene in a school, I suppose, because it has a locker room and a hallway with a lot of doors. The locker room is not like the one you can always find here like sets of lockers aligned but it was a locker room like you see on TV in American movies. It was a room which lockers are located with the showers. At first, the electricity was out and four of my girl friends and I were running in the hallway because there was this some kind of spirit of a lady that maybe you can call a ghost lady or a devilish white lady who is haunting us and when she caught us, it was really terrible. She caught us in the boys’ locker room. She caught one of my friends and I was like standing there frozen with the rest of my friends. I don’t know what to do but then my other friend jumped into action and she grabbed a candle nearby at the top of a locker. As weird as dreams are, magically, there was a lighter beside the candle. My friend lit the candle and the rest of us, snapping back to ourselves realized what’s happening. We helped our other friend who was pinned down by the ghost lady. With team work, we were able to pry off the lady off our friend and pinned her down instead. My friend placed the candle in front of the lady while we were straining to hold her off. It was not working and the ghost lady was laughing a devilish laugh. I remembered my other friend  wearing a necklace with a cross pendant so I grabbed it and held it in front of her and my other friend started praying the Apostle’s Creed. It worked; she vanished but only for awhile. We started to move out of the locker room but we saw three of our ex boy classmates. They were also hunted by a guy ghost in that building. It was a lame idea but can I control my dreams? The three guys and two of my friends searched for help and will come back for the three of us. I know there should be at least one guy who should have stayed with us. Then I found myself and two of my friends hiding at the top of a bed. That was also a lame idea. I felt someone tugging my shirt, when I looked down, it was the ghost lady. I screamed and bit her hand. She also bit my hand, so I kicked her and screamed again. My friends helped me fend her off and then the scene vanished. I woke up, sweating. I went outside my room finding the house empty. My parents are out and the helper is the only one left behind. I felt weird and groggy. Fortunately, my parents arrived a minute later. That’s the time I swear that I won’t have a 4-hour nap ever again on Sundays.

It's like it was just yesterday.

I feel that 2010 drifts so fast that I can't keep track on what's happening. I scan our pictures when we were in first year and it's like it was just yesterday that we were really close, laughing and having fun in one class in St. Gabriel. I admit, I still don't like my class now in second year. My first year experience was a whole lot better. Our bond in first year was very strong that we were really comfortable with each other. Sometimes, now that we are in second year we still find ourselves constantly hanging out with our Gabriel classmates before. We are at ease with each other not like my class this year. Yes, my class this year is the noisiest but we always fail at cooperation and teamwork. We still don't have that bond that we can say we can talk to every person in the class without awkwardness. When I was in first year, I could just hang out with anybody and have a normal conversation. I could sit with anybody without any awkward silence. Even we're noisy we have what we called team work. We don't just sit around and wait for the world to end but we all help each other during the play fest. In my class now, there are times that some of my classmates doesn't help and does useless things. In spite of all those disadvantages of my class, I'm okay with it. It's because this year's events doesn't sink into me. It's like just a dream. It's already December and next month would be another year to face. We will be in third year and I hope they'd do a better re-sectioning so that we'll all love our class. It would be another year of hardships and happiness. Well, good luck to us! :)

Love Love Love. Bahaha :P

Ayooo, maan! Guess what? Christian Beadles replied to my DM! You don't know Christian Beadles? Search him on Youtube because Youtube definitely knows who you're looking for. He's like the most awesome and my favorite Youtuber. He's actually a friend of Justin Bieber from Atlanta, Georgia and his videos were already popular even before Justin got signed by Island Def Jam Music Group. When Justin Bieber got really popular world-wide, his friends also got popular since they were with him in concerts and interviews. Christian's popularity increased when fans discovered his video with Justin doing a song mash-up before Justin was popular. Christian took it from that, he made his own name in Youtube. He uploaded enjoyable and hilarious videos with his Chipmunk voice. He took suggestions from the comments of people on his videos and he posts videos often for his fans. He was also verified on Twitter 3 months ago and being verified on Twitter is no joke. It means you're well-known and it's like you're already a celebrity. Christian's very nice because first of all he followed me back and I just tweeted him for once that he and Shane Dawson was on my Youtube homepage and a minute after he followed me. Who wouldn't leap for joy if your inspiration and a verified Twitter account followed you back and replied to your DM without you expecting it? It's like them knowing you exist and it's already a bonus. From thousands of people tweeting him to follow them back and messaging him and you were chosen. How would you feel? I was ecstatic. I tell you, it's an amazing experience. There is no boring time with The Beadles :)