WANTED: Older brother

I realized I badly want an older brother. My friends say that having an older brother is chaos and I think I can picture that out. I see my cousins with older brothers fight and piss one another off. I see them quarrel and tease each other like little kids and attacking each other because the older bro got her stuff but it still doesn't change my mind to have an older brother. I want to experience the things that other girls experience who have them. Having an older brother for me is an awesome gift from God because you are really lucky to have them. I want to carry the memory forever of how an older brother truly cares, protects, and loves me but I think that's really impossible. You see, I'm an only child and I grew up with only my toys, my yaya, and my cousin in week ends for play mates. I basically lived for 14 years without siblings. Everyday when I arrive from school I have no one to talk to about what happened to my day or what I feel because it's just awkward to talk about it with my mom because I know she'll just laugh at me or whatever. It's really just different if I have a brother of my own who can willingly listen to me when I have problems and comfort me. A brother that would always lend his hand to help me and would always be there no matter what. A brother that would help me to stand on my feet again when I fall down. A brother I could share my secrets and experiences with and vice versa. A brother that I could laugh with my jokes. A brother that would love me for who I am and would accept me whole-heartedly. I know what I'm asking for is clearly beyond the bounds of possibility and I can't have a real older brother in a million years. An idea struck me that if I can not have my own older brother by blood then maybe there is someone there that could love and care for me like his own little sister. I'll wait for that day when someone will sincerely consider me his own sibling and I would be totally ecstatic.